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The Urgency of Joy
With every closing of the year, I choose a word or a theme for the next. This year, the word that came to me is JOY. If there is anything...

ilana
Jan 10, 20224 min read


Opal Whiteley and Our Untrue Stories
What of the stories we tell about ourselves and the world are true? “It’s a poor sort of memory that only works backwards” - Queen, Alice...

ilana
Nov 17, 20215 min read


Becoming the Bear
How much bear are you anyway? When I see a wild animal, I wonder what lessons can be drawn from its nature. Its essence. When I was going...

ilana
Nov 10, 20214 min read


The Infiniteness of Identity
How does our sense of Self shift when considering our interdependence? There is an oak tree that I visit on my walks. I often pause to...

ilana
Oct 11, 20214 min read


The Joy of Zero
What the number zero can teach us about freedom. ~~~ In my twenties I was a substitute teacher for Special Education classrooms in the...

ilana
Oct 5, 20213 min read


The Gift of the Dead Coyote
Trigger Warning: death ~~image of dead coyote~~ I live on a property that is butted up against the Angeles National Forest. Lots of...

ilana
Sep 20, 20214 min read


A Brief Sunday Morning Musing
Walking alone in nature, I shapeshift. Assuming the form of the oak, the rabbit, the flicker, the whale, the darkling beetle. On the...

ilana
Sep 5, 20211 min read


The Fool Doesn't Suffer Inner Critics
The uneasy inner critic is no match for the blithesome inner fool. introducing the cast of my inner critic committee I have this trio of...

ilana
Jul 29, 20213 min read


Meeting the Fool on the Mountain
When I was on a backpacking trip in the Sierra Nevada of California I encountered a fool. I am an avid backpacker and early on in my...

ilana
Jun 30, 20213 min read


why the fool
I’ve spent much of my adulthood wondering if everyone else knows what they’re doing. I am on the stage with the other actors but I’ve...

ilana
Jun 17, 20212 min read
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